Daddy

We share a face,

But you do not know me.

Daddy, why don't you love me?

I'm not the same little girl with the tear-streaked cheeks asking for a toy.

I'm the eighteen year old woman who demands an answer.

But even then I did not get the toy

This time you will give me answers.

How do you sleep at night?

This little town listens, believes, and repeats lies that you feed it.

Like you do so much.

Daddy, how do you sleep?

Mommy brings me the moon on a string like an ivory balloon.

Tie it on your wrist, like this. She coos and demonstrates.

This is better than a toy, I say.

Mommy brings me the stars and planets as well because nothing's ever good enough.

Because she loves me.

Daddy, why do you lie?

You told them all the moon was yours.

You said it was your idea, but when I asked you to help mommy,

You said no.

You said no, Daddy.

As a child I didn't understand

But my eyes are as brown as yours.

My lips are as full as yours.

My face is as round as yours.

My hair curls and falls like yours.

My smile is as wide as yours,

But I am not you.

You are not me,

& you do not love me.

Why not, Daddy?

Oh, SNAPS!

Snapshots to, in, and coming back from D.C. <3

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• The Giant Channing. [Old Chinatown, D.C.]
• H&M Clothing [Georgetown, D.C.]
• Juicy Couture [Georgetown, D.C.] Smelled SO GOOD IN THERE!
  
  
  
• All of them wore one white glove as they carried him. How awesome is that?
• ATLANTA! WASSUPWASSUP? The bridges go into the heart of town, it's like the city eats you when you go under them.
• Right outside of Richmond, VA [HEY CHRIS!]

• The view from the Kennedy Center [where the festival was held] is incredible!
• District of Columbia tags are wassup.
• "Dumb fries." "No, Dumfreez."

• $7 Fiji water, my temptation the entire time. I stared at it and shook it, but didn't drink.
• I wanna know. WTF IS IN THERE?!
• Gaffney has a giant peach water tower thingy. I asked my sister I was like "Do you have to like get a permit for ish like that? I want one." Alabama has one in Clanton, but why? How?

• The stairs I ran up and down for fun. They were the best.
• Um, I dunno why I took this pic.
• The door Lupe came out of.
  

A Minute Passed Pissed...

So I'm working on my DC blog right? And I soon realize that I have to drag EVERY SINGLE picture that I want to the appropriate spot. Which wouldn't be so freakin awful if I didn't need them to be at the very bottom of the blog.
I don't understand why I have to do that in the first place.
Why do I have to upload the photo to the TOP of the blog?
What sense does that even make?
& on top of that? WHY IN THE WORLD SHOULD I HAVE TO DRAG I THROUGH EVERYTHING I'VE ALREADY WRITTEN!?
OMG, I am so mad right now. I am beyond angry. I can't even focus at this point. I just start to think about all the work that I put into that thing and it makes me like... fume. There are these little tremors of rage that slide through me, and I'm trying to control them.
Blogger, this is some grade aye, bull.
Number one because you have millions of bloggers on your site, and you need to understand that we don't want to spend 3 hours on a blog because we can't get our pictures in the right spot.
The EDIT WINDOW IS TOO FREAKIN SMALL!? OMG IT'S SMALLER THAN MY HAND VERTICALLY!
Then on top of that you expect us to drag our photos through all of our work NOT TO MENTION LEAVING GIANT GAPING HOLES IN OUR BLOGS!
That's what happened to my DC blog. Not only did I have to drag pictures but I HAVE A GAPING HOLE INSIDE OF MY BLOG!
It is July 24, 2009!
Now I'm pressing commands and they're not even working!!!!
THIS IS COMPLETELY UNACCEPTABLE!
OMG! WHAT- WHY? I am going to write an angry email to these people. This is some bull.
I can't even finish my blog because I am infuriated. Are there other blog sites? Because I don't have the patience for this CRAP. I don't-nobody should have to drag all of their pictures through their already written work, and deal with spacing issues and commands not being followed through because of a STUPID editing thingy.
I am so mad. This is completely beyond me. I can't believe that this barbaric crap still exists!
AS MANY PEOPLE THAT BLOG ON THIS SITE! AS MANY PEOPLE!!?
That's freakin ridiculous.
It's taking all I have not to spit out every curse word under the sun right now.
I am beyond mad. I am pissed, infuriated, livid, inraged. PICK ONE!

Omg, I need to go do some Yoga...

Vacation, All I Ever Wanted...

So, let me get you up to Speed about my trip to Washington, D.C.

First off, it was pretty freakin spontaneous. My sister, who is in LOVE with friggin Michael Ealy's ass, stumbled upon this little Hip Hop Festival thing he would be participating in. Well, she called me up on Friday July 3rd and asked me if I was interested. I was like "Um, sureeee..." So, the weekend came and I got more information. Blah Blah Blah... We left on our lovely expedition to D.C. at approximately 7pm on July 6th. It was a 13 hour drive. Some of which I thoroughly enjoyed. Um, Atlanta was bloody gorgeous to me. I got to see the city at night and omgosh, my mind was completely BLOWWWWWNNNN. Gorgeous I tell you. Just, bloody gorgeous. Well anyways. I guess I should skip to the juicy details. I do NOT want to bore my audience in any way, shape, or fashion. Um, we got there and stayed at The Lathan which is a lovely hotel in the poshville that is Georgetown, D.C. so we get there, right? The room we have is not really what I would've pictured. It's on the third floor, which is UNDERGROUND! [Oh yes baby, I am so serious.] That's cool, but there are no windows, and that highly upsets a person like me. Anyways, we brush on, get cute, and go to the little festival thing. It was a free event so we had to show up extra early to make sure that we had a spot. To say the least, the performances were AMAZING! I don't have my little program thingy with me, but just take my word for it. They were awesome. So, after the show, my sister and I headed to this courtyard, BEAUTIFUL courtyard by the way, and we were just chillin, talkin, when, guess who comes out of the backstage door? Lupe-freakin-Fiasco. Yes, so I [being the loud person that I am] yell, "LUPE!" like I know him or something. He turns. He smiles. He waves. Lol. It was AWESOME! Fast forward through the night. I FOUND TWO ROACHES IN OUR ROOM! LOL! Yeah, needless to say we got an UPGRADE!....It even had stairs! After our sweetttt suite upgrade we met up with my sister's friend Curtis who's a native, and not to mention extremely cute. [He spazzed about the room and claimed I was going with him on his next vacation as the "roach hunter" to get better rooms! HAHA!] Anyways, we were supposed to go to this Afterparty or whatever, so we got all dressed up...walked allllll the way to the club only to find out that I couldn't get in. I'm only 18. That night, 21 & up only. Curtis freaked out he was like "You're eighteen?! I thought you were like 21!" Talk about a crazy night. We had a good laugh about that, and then they took me back to the hotel, and dropped me off.[-_ -]. SMHHHHHHHH! Yeah, I was bummed, but then the next day, we jumped in the car & got lost in D.C....purposely. We were/are broke, and therefore I took pictures from the car lol...see? Here's the Washington Monument and you would've Never Known my sis was goin 50 in the shot. There are A LOT of angry drivers in DC...rawr! They hawnk A LOT. Very, very angry like pitbulls. Well yeah, I saw the capitol building too, [snaps later] and so from there we went back to Georgetown and explored our surroundings. There were like a bagillion stores, and it was crowded, but I loved it all the same. I really, really loved it. The air was clean and the weather was amazing. Needless to say, I fell in love with the place, and my sister and I made plans to come back once we were more financially stable. On our last night in D.C. [since we couldn't go out -yeah...I had to apologize like 2,451,967 times], we, along with Curtis, just walked the town. Where I saw the biggest picture of Channing Tatum EVER! YUM! Then at around 3AM, we made the trip back.I have to say it was one of the most fun things I've ever done in my life. Definitely lots of memories were made, and I got to bond with my sister on a level that had never been attempted. Through all the struggles, stresses, and lack of SLEEP that were had, I would do it all again in less than a heartbeat...

Boom, Boom, POW!

Wow, it has been so long since I have blogged. Lately, I've been falling off my game. I apologize lol. Um, a lot has happened since, and I dunno what to tell or what not to tell. So, here's it in a nutshell.

• Hung out with the people I love & haven't seen for a long time.
• Went to Washington, D.C.
• Spent time and took pictures with the most awesome kids on the planet.

Now, that may not seem like a lot to you, but trust me, it is. I will tell you about those later I promise. Um, maybe not today, I dunno, depends on how I feel, but I do want to blog to you & tell you how I'm feeling right about now. Right about now, I'm feeling okay. It's early in the morning & I like to feel like the entire day is ahead of me so I'm happy about that. I am getting ready for the business that is fastily approaching [by that I mean, college] and I'm scared out of my MIND! So, yeah, I'm happy, but scared. That's my good good for right now...

[movie announcer voice: MORE COMING SOON!]